So apart from feeling post rage machine (with still some lasting effects of agitation) due to a stupid argument with the mother in which involved her cracking it at me because my room is "dusty"- me replying its because she chooeses to exclude my room from being mopped, her saying my room is always so messy with clothes on the floor, me rebutting not always in fact i just did a full clean out of my room AND the laundry and how some people older than me have there room swept and mopped by cleaners so she shouldnt complain, then to top it all off Dad fucking gets involved and tells me to "stop talking like that. You don't have the right to be angry because she is your mother" and pretty much just telling me to fucking shutup- which doesnt help when mum won't shutup herself and continuing to me.
Its actually quite fucking annoying just reflecting on it. I hate how I get told off for being angry despite my legit reasons. And sometimes I really hate how my family is so fucking strict, how they don't realise that they are lucky to have a daughter like me, how people around me are so fucking spoilt by their parents and they don't do shit or work hard at all.
And what fucking pisses me off is that I am an 18- an adult. Yet they don't respect that.
Not only don't I get financial rewards but I don't get fucking freedom - not a reward BUT SOMETHING I SHOULD BE FUCKING ENTITLED TO.

FUCK HERE IT GOES I AM FUCKING JEALOUS OF SOME PEOPLE.
Yes I know my parents work hard, but could they have worked harder? In comparison to others. I guess they are pretty well off in comparison to where they came from but I just fucking wish sometimes.... Like fuck I know I am lucky and I do have it good but its times like these when its like - shit parents- no respect, no freedom and not even fucking financial rewards.

Like motherfucker they expect me to have all this responsibility and maturity yet they don't treat me like I do. Fucking hell!!!!!