It's been a while....
So you're gone. And I miss you. And I miss you as an excuse.
It's hit me harder than what I expected for various reasons.
So much time.... so many things I could be doing right now
-excercising
-reading
-nida homework
-reveiw literature everynight
-homework for auditions

And you gone has highlighted the bad habits I have developed....
I need to get off my ass. PUSH MYSELF.
Stop longing for your presence and the easiness... it will make it so much better when you come back.
I need to stop procrastinating. Complaining and being in my head.
Be the proactive self I know I am..


Also have come to realisation- need to stop feeling like I am underacknoledged. Be proud of who I am and that is enough. I don't need to prove myself to anyone - except me.

2 months and a week.